I have to say to y'all, that I am sick..and tired..yes, that's it, sick and tired of late. Just cannot, as much as I try, get a good sleep. I guess it has been that way for the past year since I was sick. I think it is because, among other things, I don't really want to sleep..maybe I want to stay awake and not miss a thing..because when you know you were saved from God ( or the devil..who knows where I was going?), you just wanna keep on living. It is a bit dumb though really, because I know full well that a good night sleep is important for your health. As a mum, I know if the kids let out a noise in the night I am up in a flash to see what is up. Before I became a mum I slept well, slept in even!!!
I have been having heart palpitations of late too. They are painless, yet frighteneing. I can only imagine what my patients go through, the ones on the cardiac and cardiovascular wards. A prisoner in their own homes due to the unforseeable chest pains that may come upon them at any given time, the hope that their Anginine will kick in at the right time before they call the ambulance. It is one consolation to having the open heart surgery, they do not have to be that prisoner any more. They can go out, have fun and do some strengthening exercises to build up their cardiovascular and musculature systems.
Today I begin a kick start diet. Consists of a very large amount of vegetable soup. Today is the SOUP and FRUIT day. Eat as much of this as I like, as often as I like for today. Ride my exercise bike for 30 mins or so (I have been doing this twice a day for in the last week now, except yesterday when I worked my ass off until 9:30pm). Then tomorrow is another day.
Oh, I failed to mention, I am a BITCH without caffeine too!! I have had to stop having my usual two coffees a morning and cut out the Zero Cola I have to drink from time to time. (Hear me cry?) I need caffeine...maybe I will go eat another piece of fruit....